I was in a great mood when I woke up today. Happy and dancing in the car on my way to work. Boss sent that to shit within an hour.

For some reason I’ve been semi-hard all day today. I have managed to resist temptation and not masterbate at work. Small steps right.

well, this is pretty much a failed cause.

since the failure,  I’ve jerked off every morning.

I’m supposed to go to the strip club tomorrow with my boss.  I know that will end with me jerking off because it won’t end with my dick in a vagina.

I know when I go back to texas I’ll visit my favorite wank shack.  Resolution or not, it’s a once in a year experience.

I want to find a real relationship.  Love, commitment.  I’m just going to have to figure out how to dedicate myself properly when I get back home.

Either nipple peircing girl.  I should really give her the propper attention.  Or the soon to be divorced girl whom I fell in love with right after my previous love.  I haven’t felt for anyone like her other than my first love(we’ll call her A), and she was the first girl I went out with after A and I broke up.  But it just didn’t sync up.  and I think she’s a very bad girl for me, but for some reason I’m still hooked on her.  Nipple peircing girl(we’ll call her L) is a very viable option, but I haven’t been around her long enough to feel anything other than lust.

failed.

don’t care, felt great.

did almost nothing today.

woke up late even though I meant to wake up earlier.

managed to do stretches and excercises again today.  hurt.

went and ate at a “Steak and Shake”

I can check that box on the list of life, but I have no intention of putting any tally marks next to it….

sore throat, so got some Nyquil.

put me on my ass way earlier than I thought.  Been sleeping all afternoon.

Woke up at 10, which sucks.  Was hoping to sleep through the night.

Take another shot of nyquil by light of the laptop

Start a Porcupine Tree playlist and hope the Q coma doesn’t take long.

Gotta take my coworker to the airport in the morning, then pick my boss up from the airport later.  Not looking forward to tomorrow.